Yes, now they all have gone again and looking back I first was glad. But already in the minute Heide said farewell I longed to see her again. I was very pleased about her visit with Rudi, it was great to have had Michael in our apartment and it would be great to have dear friends around more often. But I also had to realise that I was not feeling well on Monday, I had to take a strong painkiller on Saturday and then on Monday I had a kind of hangover, a resting day in bed, light depression and then the prospect of being the sole responsible for my mother again.
She could get a wonderful room in the pensioers’ home attached to the geriatric hospital, but she refuses. Her “dear” Bonzo has killed the cat in the family that had taken him, but is allowed to stay nevertheless. All that depresses me. It sounds ridiculous, but I also write it as an information for our friends who usually are informed by Axel about the wide world. In this situation he is a huge support for me as is my niece Nata from Canada whom I had a long talk with over the weekend. She also has a good feeling when I talk to her about our relationship.
To day again I regretted not being able to take photographs, as the red morning sun changed a glas front of a high rise building near Alexanderplatz into a gleaming bronze wall and one could still see the full moon in the light blue clear sky, the moon which already had cast her shadows into the room. And again my plants show that they are felling well, my passion flower shows 3 new shoots on the cut-back branch, my oldest azalea starts to bloom and the holly is developing an overwhelming show of flowers. The last one I got as a present last year with buds which Smokie removed all (!!!), this is the first year it is blooming. I hope we will remember to take a picture over the weekend. And my orchids also bloom, even if Smokie tries everything to prevent it. In the staircase the arbutus is blooming, my lily already has developed 5 shoots from the lump. All gives me the strength in addition to Axel to overcome the imminent cold and darkness. I hope you take a small piece of happiness from mine for yourself.